I see you over there. You take your kids to their sports practices, their dance classes, their swim lessons. And I long to be you.

I long for the freedom to just go somewhere and not worry about the consequences of picking up an illness. I wish I could even just read someone's fb post about their kids' extra curriculars and not see that so-in-so in their kid's class was ill (but came anyway, or got sick there).

I freak out at the thought.

And then I feel guilt. I feel I'm depriving my kids of all of this simply bc I can't do it.

I. Am. Afraid.